contradictions

anti-consumerist, minus the shirt on his back, the pants on his legs, his hat, his trousers...

resist the urge to buy... but what will people think of him wearing the same clothes multiple times a week?

seeking to be an individual in a society that thrives on conformity...

expected to work a 9-5 office job, alongside the masses as they promote and produce incorporeal products like property ownership and insurance.

the free market must encapsulate players; choice inexplicably requires submission.

"be a leader, not a follower." those words continue to resound in his mind years after their induction... but how? observing the actions of others and subsequently taking the path untraveled requires a) a complete conception of the universe of discourse which, in this case, includes knowledge of every road possible, and b) the ability to become entirely self-sustaining.

the contradiction of existing and being free launched an existential crisis that nearly set him over the edge. narrowly able to regain his composure, he engaged the entanglement again and again... but there was only one deduction that remained consistent:

the one action that expresses an individual's true freedom is that which opposes his/her autonomous "nature." 0.

confused. alone. detached from the network. freethinking. grappling with epistemology and ontology. questioning logic and creativity.

hardly unlike a computer stuck in a recursive operation. and i bet you've never wondered why the number zero is circular...

what is a signifier?

what is the signified?

what is meaning?

what is knowledge?

what is a question?

what is "what"?

what is what.

what is "is"?

is is what "is" is.

what.

is.

period.

tautology, the only truth.

truth is validity.

validity is a tautology.

infinity.

circle.

idle.

dead end.

end dead.

suicide.

0 is infinity.

infinity is 0.

eternity in a night (pt. 1)

hey, just trust me on this.
when? oh believe me, you'll know.
anxious? don't worry, i was too. but the nervousness will fade off. it always does...
it's never been terrible for me, and i don't know anyone else for whom it has.


...


anything yet?
yea? how is it? :)
wanna know a secret? i've been enlightened before.
how? well i'll show you!
come, dance with me.
but first let me just hit repeat...

green light

small clouds form out of thin air, like magic. the diminishing space between the weightless fluid produces grey haze, swirling elegantly. the smoke collapses and condenses, collapses, condenses, getting smaller and brighter, smaller, brighter... until the scorching hot white ball is received by full, protruding lips.

reverse.

the system frantically searches file cabinets, extracting files and reading them -- scanning them -- incinerating most when finished but hiding a few. those few are unwillingly recovered later, when grazed green is transformed into cotton clouds. organic machine.

think.

things desperately hidden cannot stay covered. that which is seen cannot be unseen and that which is done cannot be undone. the mission: prove myself wrong.

go.