obsession

express. relax and recollect. reflect on the connections between perceived dreams and what to expect next.

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i want to see with you.
i want to eat and drink with you.
i want to think with you. blink with you...
i want to be on the brink with you.

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seek your beasts. speak with ease. piece together your demons and dream of a decent scene 'til you leave feeling serene and inebriated with heaps of peace.

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i want to believe through you,
to achieve through you,
to people-please through you,
i need to seize through you...

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don't choke, grope the strongholds and hope for the ghosts of the past to blow over, overlook transference and the urge to purge and brand this person with a damned version of another, please remember, she's not HER yet, and you're not perfect...

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i need to dream from you
blow bogie smoke and steam from you
i need to breathe from you, see from you
to bleed from you...

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i need to BE you...

free association 6

joke
laugh
cackle
cattle
beef
eat
drink
drunk
party
hard
diamond
carbon
life
earth
water
fire
magma
nickel
dime
quarter
half
two
piece
whole
hole
chasm
canyon
grand
majestic
purple
haze
daze
craze
crazy
insane
creative
genius
smart
clever
quick-witted

word salad

lately I've spent many days wasting away in the basement of a place adjacent to my Escape, basically abhorrent and, moreover, agoraphobic, but tryna get back to a state where I used to be. and my attic is fiending for me to take a stab at leaving but the lack of fencing actually kept me from vacating to my neighbors' oasis and left me snarling and on guard like a barking dog-guardian.

gotta get away from all the haze and fog and awful memories to keep from fleeting in this bog and being replaced by a doppelgänger of a tall, lanky, half-attractive, gifted-but-also-daft young bastard. faux valiant, oft galvanic -- I could go on... I'm not being self-depreciative, but just speaking the only things I think I believe to be true. and I need to subdue these unbelievably narcissistic ruminations, too...

I don't know where I was going with that, just had to vent like a night spent grilling catfish and trapped in a kitchen with windows but no gaps...