chaos

his mind is primed and inclined toward the omnidirectional, but these constraints limit his vision to the unilateral

any praise makes him revaluate his explicitly exclaimed appraisal, exchanging sacred names with the desecrative symbiotes that need a fertile brain to claim

but wouldn't autonomy be easier? automated motions, regulated emotions, eschewal of the fluid

"shit, something's off..."

REBOOT.

innumerable iterations, each time leading to a chain reaction that foreshadows cataclysmic failure, systemic error

neurodivergence is a bitch sometimes

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the rest of them seem to sway gracefully to the cadence of a tango, effortlessly harmonizing, effervescently chiming in at the suggestion of renewed ideas, plainly optimistic in the face of the bane

"they're all instantiations of Creation; ambassadors of patterns that are imbued by the Unity... by the Source... by Allah... by God"

but most of the time he doesn't believe.

while these microcosms of the Universe, masquerading as people, create, he eliminates

he's the torch-bearer of the Chaotic, bringing destructive thunder and whirlwinds with laded nihilism

but try as he might, he can't beguile them...

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perhaps these eruptions rendered his capacity to love just a puddle of sludge that needs to be muddled through

potent jealousy for the fortune of others, though tender compersion for their ability to maintain, to durate.

compersion... his most revered holism...

a bijection injects it's way into his awareness -- a clear correlation of his impulsivities and superfluous analyses, all the while missing the forest for the fucking field of trees

"simplicity... the key is simplicity..."

he thinks they know that logic and emotion can only be mutually exclusive, dichotomized, but both exist simultaneously in him, contending for totalitarian conquest, inevitably shuttling him to the realm of the hopeless

feeling homeless in a world full of open houses, squatting out back in an alley until it's safe to go back and check his residence for residual treasures

but the doors are all locked shut and sealed with concrete; thousand bedroom house with only one closet rendered accessible

scheduled for demolition next week...