a while ago i had posted a nonsensical, superfluous attempt at a logical persuasion as to why i shouldn't be concerned about my seemingly impeding decline in mental stability. condensed, it went something like this:
P v Q: i may or may not be crazy
P -> (R ^ (R -> S)): if i'm crazy, then there's nothing i can do about it, so i should pick up the "fuck it" mentality
Q -> (U ^ (U -> S)): if i'm not crazy, then i'm stressing over nothing, and so i should still pick up the "fuck it" mentality
(P v Q) -> S: regardless of my stance on my own sanity, i should pick up the "fuck it" mentality
lol
so basically, since P and Q occupied the entire universe of discourse (and are mutually exclusive), what i was trying to do was deduce the arbitrary necessity of S.
i deleted that post when someone close to me told me it was nonsense. basically, after the hint that it was bad, and then my prying to know just how bad it was, i deleted the post out of embarrassment. but, what it took some time to realize, though, was that this is my blog, and although the post actually WAS horribly written, i shouldn't have been ashamed. i had written what was on my mind at the time, which is exactly what the fuck a blog is for. i was actually a bit shocked at who it was that treated my anxiety about my own sanity as trivial, perhaps dismissing it as a twisted narcissistic manifestation begging for a release -- or whatever the hell it was she was thinking. i'm unsure exactly what they all thought when they read it, but the reaction was clearly blatant amusement.
what's actually funny is that the saying "crazy people don't know they're crazy" is thought to have come from someone who is sane -- however, if the statement itself is true, then the coiner himself could very well be in denial...
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